after a horrendous week of emotional turmoil last week it was with a lot of trepidation i trained on Saturday.
I knew the Master would ask to grade me and i knew i wasn't mentally up to it.
He did ask, i said i didn't feel right about it, and i asked what was my options, he said i didn't have any and gave me a Sabumnim to go through my stuff for 40 minutes and prepare for it in the 2nd hour of the class.
i was ok, but on reporting back to the Master the Sabumnim said i just needed to polish up my form a little more... reprieve!